Before I sign off, I just have this to add:
As much as I would like to (appease my sister and) go back to my psychiatrist, if I had the choice, I'd really like to move on with my life and not get stuck for another millenia indulging in psycho-babble. I'm helping the doctor more than I'm helping myself at this point.
May God give me the decency of having a "say", a "choice" in what I'm in this world for. I hate to waste (my talk time) out on some psychiatrist (who will only meddle with my thoughts). Maybe I can do it for a couple of weeks but that's the limit for sure.